Tuesday, 29 July 2014

Sometimes you have to be a bad person, to be a better person to yourself.

Friday, 25 July 2014

"No one is rich enough to have a luxurious happy life without inner peace."

Tuesday, 22 July 2014

"He wanted us to get back together."
"Oh my God, that's great, I mean I don't know, I'm so excited, you guys were so amazing together, What did you say? Oh damn me! Of course, you would have chosen to be with him instead of being sad" she put up with the self answered questions out of excitement.
"Mayra, I chose peace" 

Wednesday, 16 July 2014


Every next winter,
when we no longer
be a part of each other,
I'll send you
a blanket of my warmth
with a part of my heart.
For, out beyond the
distances and grudges,
I'll always care for you.
Every next morning,
when my last dream
will be about you,
I'll wail a tear 
in the memory of 
all times, we dreamed 
to relive in real.
For, with every rain
and all the love songs,
I'll always miss you.
Every next time,
when I'll feel forlorn 
for no reason,
I'll close my eyes
to not feel
the unfilled gap
between my fingers.
For, from every yesterday
to all tomorrows,
I'll always love you.

Monday, 14 July 2014

The untying ties

I wake up, everyday
and I find a little changed
May be we all grow up
or may be
this is how we are.
As though the friend, who
I can no longer count on, 
for we lost us 
to ego and time.
Maybe, that's
how attachments are, we
forget the worth someday.
And bewildering it is
having the brother
who's there for me,
never here with me.
May be, that's
how relations are,of which
denotations get wiser.
She married happily, and 
I prayed the finest for her.
yet, her red & white bangles
exasperate me, while that
sister holds my hand.
May be, that's
how ties are, some are
slacked to build new ones.
We promised each other,
the span between today
and eternity, that turned
shorter than forever.
May be
that's how strings are.
The older I get,
the lesser I understand.

Friday, 11 July 2014

"I don't understand Mayra! I was doing fine. Really fine. And when I thought I was actually getting over him, he texted me! Like seriously? He wants me to hang in there for the rest of my life just to see in case he changes his fucking mood! No, don't think I 'm crying! I'm not crying because I don't know what I want. These are tears of anger! I feel so  aggravated, he just wrote a message like he still cares for me and boom! I'm back to level zero where I have to start moving on all over again! Don't you think I'm feeling messed up again, I'm fine, it's just......" it's just that..."
"Edha, Edha shhhhh, my girl, come here. It's okay." she gave me the much needed hug while I broke down.
"This is life. It just is what it is. It's not always fair. It's never fair" she said.

Wednesday, 9 July 2014

"Mayra, What is the best thing that Ryan ever did to you?"
"He never let me leave, even when I wanted to. Most important, he never left. The best thing Ryan did to me till today is that he kept all the promises he never made" she said.